토요일, 5월 27, 2006
Listening to: 周渝民 & 徐熙缓 [让我爱你]
Feeling: Extremely hungry
Thinking: About when my lunch will come home
For goodness's sake, its close to 4pm in the afternoon!! N i still have not had my lunch lor..I can practically hear n feel my poor stomach growling feebly away in protest. For once, i feel real sympathetic towards it. Mian haeyo! Hiaks..the weather kinda makes me drowsy now too. So if my entry sounds incoherent, blame it on the sky. Or should i say, the lack of blood glucose. Well, probably the synergistic action of both ba. Whatever the case is, i just want FOOD.
Loacker Quadratini in Napolitaner flavour certainly does not seem to be a good choice in times of starvation. Dump it.
I was still pretty much in a merry mood this morning. Glad that i finally found a prof who was willing to take me n angel in i.e. i guess im still pursuing my hons afterall. So one huge big stone lifted off my petite shoulder and i can sigh a heave of relief. No more nobody's child.. but yet something else after that made me realise that there is really no point in coercion. Perhaps there is really some hint of truth in the saying, 'more haste, less speed'. But did anyone thought of an alternative if one cant afford to be extravagant with his/her time? I wish to lavish praise as a morale booster, but i simply cant seem to find adequate reasons to do so..
N unfortunately, my enthusiasm doesnt seem keen to serve me for long..
So for the umpteenth time, where is my FOOD?
Trust me, i remain unabated in my agonising wait for my food..faster la, aiyo..
목요일, 5월 25, 2006
Listening to: Jung Ii Young [Gido], [Reason]
Feeling: Exhausted
Thinking: Need i say what..
Angel said i seemed exceptionally calm today. This despite the fact that less than an hour ago, i was rejected by my first prof. Ok, i know most pple will just ask me to give it a second try. Afterall, there are so many profs out there, surely there will some good Samaritan who would be so kind and unassuming so as to 'adopt' me n angel. Well, i din say i was dismissing the idea. It was just that what CKL said kinda struck a chord in me.
For one, i dun have urops. Secondly, i din come from a poly. Third, i have near zero lab experience. In conclusion, i wouldnt choose a lab idiot like myself if i was the prof. Period.
Should i give it a try den? Frankly, i dun have that much confidence. I hate lab work, i loathe the thought of having to go back lab everyday, i detest having to dissect mice, i cant stand microscopic work, i dread the final presentation n i have less den 1% interest in research. Woah. I think i will be super impressed with myself if i do go ahead with it in the end. Applause please..
Aiya i dunno lah. Trust me, i have been trying to make up my mind since the previous semester and still it has come to naught. I even went as far as to pin my hopes on somebody k. Silly, i know but lets just say it was an added bonus. But now, there is simply no single determining factor that can really make me steel my nerves n heart to go for honours.
Should i toss a coin, pluck flower petals, do a tarot reading n leave it all to fate?
I want a job that allows me to use my korean n jap. Does that sound related to life sciences in any way? Cos i see no connection..
But honours really sounds so much better to me. Save me the crap about a rose is still a rose no matter what its called..cos i dun think mr william shakespeare will wake from his grave n give me a hint on my decision here.
Im not being superficial. Its the world that is harsh out there. No cert, no money. Duh.
I miss the 2 songs..i think it was at least 3 or 4 years since autumn in my heart came out.
화요일, 5월 23, 2006
Listening to: Choi Jin Young
Feeling: Extremely listless
Thinking: About giving up my honours
Im in a dilemma. Sian..should i really be pursuing my hons? I know for sure i wun be using it in the future. Nah, research is not something that i can imagine myself doing for the rest of my life. So why the reluctance to give it up?
Peer pressure? Maybe.
Somehow, it just feels inadequate to graduate with a mere degree. Im not being superficial. Sure, i know how glamorous it feels to be on the upper hand when u get compared with pple. In short, im just doing my hons for the sake of doing it. Well, everybody else is doing it, arent they?
Sheesh.
One year is a long time.
5000 bucks is not a meagre sum.
N i dun have the faith to carry it through.
Most importantly, i dun like the way things are right now.
My senses tell me i ought to be rational. But my heart tells me otherwise.
Why cant i be doing something i truly like?
Sigh.
월요일, 5월 22, 2006
Just a short note cos my mum is hurrying me to go make sushi..later still have to go supermarket with her!! Argh..im turning into a full-fledged housewife wannabe at this rate le lor..lol. But as long as she dun start asking me to wash clothes (except when i go home past my curfew), mop floor n i dunno wat else, im glad enuf. =p
Hmm what shld i say..these few daes wasnt really in the blogging mood cos well, things happen, n naturally, mood fluctuates. But im still pretty much indulging myself in korean dramas. Consider it as mood therapy. =) Ohya angel, i started on goong n sassy ger chun hyung without completing my ger afterall..heh i will come back to my ger soon ba. But i think the role of the prince in goong shld be given to kang dong wan!! Aiyo the guy looks old lor..even though i like his height n his hair but still..the face barely makes up for it..lol heh ok i shldnt be so evil. Den jae hee is not bad, quite cute. But i like his parents..they are the same pple in my ger right?
Yup, my sushi rice is crying for my attention liao..
금요일, 5월 19, 2006
Listening to: 王力宏 <一首简单的歌>
Feeling: Glad for someone and unexplainable happy..
Action of the moment: Reminiscing about kangta
Realised this song does seem pretty nice afterall..heh. Just read my di's blog n im really glad for him that he has really been thinking things through..i know he is really a mature person but when things all seem to weigh down at the same time, it takes more than a saint to cope with it..so i really hope he can be happy..not for anything or anyone else but simply cos he deserves to be..anyway i took quite some time to decipher the 'she be be'..lol. I know i cant help most of the time, but no matter what u are still my xiao didi so i will always be there to listen to u 'kae..=) heh so u must listen to me too.. N u look much better when u smile so mus do that more often k..remember all the aunties queueing up to get ur signature..n of cos the xiao hua who is still waiting for ur bicycle ride..hehz. In short, i miss the shawn who always love to ka jiao me..=p
I made a deal with someone 2 days back. Cant divulge anything here but when the dateline is up n nothing occurs, well time to say goodbye..it will be regretful, thats all i can say..
Yay later meeting angel to go sign up for my korean course at nus extension. Its something that i have always wanted to do ever since i first saw h.o.t on mtvasia in 2001..Heh ok i admit, im reminiscing again. As i said a dozen times before, i adore my memories. Every single one of them. So one day if i get inflicted with brain injuries to my cerebral cortex, congrats to me ba. Lol. But before that really happens (*touch wood*), trust me that i will remember u if u had ever crossed paths with me..
The kangta that i fell in love with 5 years ago..Think he changed alot after the breakup..but no matter what, he will always be the most special person to me in my history of korean madness. =）
A week more to release of results..this will kinda determine whether im really going for honours..
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수요일, 5월 17, 2006
Mood of the day: Kinda sad
Action of the moment: Doing questa club n exploring the Tarot
Sanity is elusive. True? Possibly, i reckon. At least to half a dozen pple out there around me right now. Hols seem to have a reverse calming effect on pple huh. Now that everyone has too much time on their own, they tend to let their thoughts run wild. N I cant say i aint one of them. Hiaks..Complete insanity.
I want to get my life back on track. Its erm straying out of sheer boredom? Mad. Now i think i rather not be a tai-tai next time cos I will surely go nuts everyday just slacking around in the house. Tsk tsk..how can anyone adjust to such a sedentary life? Im impressed.Very.
Hmm shawn finally played the violin for me yesterday. Heh. I have been bugging him to let me hear since my birthdae? Lol. That was like ages ago. But seeing him play makes me wanna learn too. Heh think i really must learn to bridle the urge to pick up new things. Or else my list will just be neverending. Anyway i have already drawn up a list of stuff i wanna accomplish (ok, i hope to accomplish) during the hols. Ehh, i wouldnt say the list is short cos it sure does look more on the lengthy side to me. =p
Hmm issit right to expect so much out of pple? Someone once told me something that i can still remember vividly til to this day. The person said to me: " Did u expect too much out of me, thats y when i din meet ur expectations, u became disappointed in me?" Ignoring the context when these words were spoken, i think it holds true for most other situations as well. But frankly, the only reason why i can be disappointed in someone does not steer far from one word: concern.
Sorry, i seem to be harping on the same topic over n over again. Enuf of my rantings.
화요일, 5월 16, 2006
Mood of the day: Disappointed
Action of the moment: Letting my no 1 entertainer cheer me up
Sigh. Seriously, a sigh is hardly sufficient to indicate how i feel right now. Kindly enlighten me on how one should feel if u had put in tremendous effort on somebody n yet u realise that it just ends up merely as a valiant, but thoroughly futile attempt in the end. Simply put, im not angry n i do not see the need to berate for what is done cannot be undone. But yet, i reserve the right to feel disappointed albeit it aint my life that is being wasted.
So why do i still feel let down?
Perhaps cos im concerned?
Think about it.
Suddenly, i wish for a tranquil life.
Everyone seems caught up in a maelstrom of emotions recently.
Am i the only one who is trying her best to be sane?
월요일, 5월 15, 2006
| Your Heart Is Green |
 Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance |
What Color Heart Do You Have?
I like the part about the lucky first date..=)
| Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Your propensity for monogamy is high.You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.And in return, you expect the same from who you love.Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low.This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together. |
The Five Variable Love Test
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.
What Temperment Are You?
Mood of the day: Neutral
Action of the moment: Thinking of something
Back. Ehh the chalet was ok lar nothing much to do there so i did the thing i excel in: R-O-T. Lol. Somemore i couldnt stay til sun so in the end din get to play mj with angie n hy they all. Boring..now its back to hibernation mode once again. Dun even feel like doing anything, just pure rotting bah. In fact i think my life has come to a standstill. But i believe its just for the moment. Cos i dun think i wish to waste my life away lydat.
Yup so glad that my salsa 3 is going to start again this friday. I have been like anticipating the arrival of 19th may since god knows when lor. But i dunno if i shld go down khatib to see the samba class cos juline will be going for her diving trip this fri so she cant make it. =(
Anyway my comp is finally revived cos my bro bought my network card le..heh. I miss my comp dearly~
목요일, 5월 11, 2006
Mood of the day: Alright
Action of the moment: Watching Magic
Heh i think Magic is a nice show! Haha ok, save for the fact that im like cursing the guy i like halfwae through the show. Kang dong won's role in the show is erm simply hard to like cos he's basically a player lor. Ehh i dun need to explain whats a player right. N hes the male lead somemore leh. Budden his cuteness more den makes up for the flawed character. Lol. The show is one of the few shows that is pretty much fast paced. There are like 2 pple dead by the 2nd episode lor. I was like woah..isnt that a tad too fast or something. Heh but the suspense really keeps me going.
Im going chalet from tmr onwards le. Hmm guess i wun see somebody's entry til monday when i come back. Its alright i guess.
A scene i got from jeong-woo in my Girl. "It seems like its always tranquil n snowing in a snowball but in reality, once the glass covering shatters, the whole world will simply collapse." Apologies for the lousy translation n just in case, the snowball i meant is those glass ones whereby u shake it n there will be like mini snowflakes flying around inside. The quote sounds better in chinese lar but i cant type chinese here so erm cant help it. N one thing i wanna comment about the show is that the only scenes that made me teared was when jeong-woo wanted to let yoo-rin go. Heh dun think i need to explain why..
수요일, 5월 10, 2006
Mood of the day: Saturated n sleepy
Action of the moment: Overdosing myself in drama
Weird that now i finally have all the time in the world to indulge in dramas, i kinda wish that i had something more constructive to do. Nah, im not complaining or turning myself away from the lure of more dramas cos im still very much a drama junkie. Heh. Just completed My fair lady n all i can say is that it falls nicely into the category of 'i hate the 2nd male lead'. Lol. Ehh sorry shawn, i still cant find anything cute about the guy lor. His facial expression very irritating leh. N this was one show that din manage to wring any tears out of me. Hmm, maybe cos i took too long to watch it? Dunno leh. N Go Soo aint my type either. But overall still ok la. Den now trying to finish up My Girl. The exact opposite of My fair lady cos now im rooting for the 2nd male lead. Ok fine, i alreade know the ending lar. Hope joonki comes out with his own drama soon den maybe i will buy it. Heh. Speaking of which, the dvd for King n the clown will be coming out even before the show is screened in Singapore. Hiaks. What can i say..
Watching chobits n Train man as well as Magic at the same time. Busy busy busy..lol.
I m still waiting for my network card n my oven..ohh today is the last dae of torture for shawn n lionel. =p N my new tuition is alright so far i guess. Just keeping my fingers crossed that they wun find anything wrong with me. N i only realised that p6 vocabulary is actually super duper hard when i flipped through her assessment books. Diao. Think got like 30-40% of the words there that im unsure of. Well, if they decided to keep me it will be high time for me to go brush up on my angmo le. But...just let me stay in my nua state for a while longer bah..heh.
Ehh think i shall leave my goals to my next entry..told u i am a procrastinator le..cos i wanna go take my afternoon nap now..lol.
Annyoung..
화요일, 5월 09, 2006
Mood of the day: =)
Action of the moment: JAejoong, jaejOong n more jaEjoong..
Heh now is 'concentrate on jaejoong' time again..lol. I know i lurve joonki but i lurve jaejoong waaaay much more wor..hehe. =) Hes such a cutie. Now im like waiting for his debut drama, hiphop! Hope that he finishes filming soon so i can watch it cos he looks super nice in there k. But the only catch is that the scenes i saw so far were only of him being beaten up..hiaks. Speaking of that, joonki is actually a black belt in taekwando, same as hyesung. Not bad not bad..lol. Guys shld all learn some form of martial arts den look nicer mah. Or else nua nua one.
Hmm dying to revamp my blogskin n give it a total korean (addict) feel, but im still waiting for my bro to buy my network card so i can use back my own comp. My bro's comp is like erm still living in the windows98 era lor. Lol. Cant even type chinese so what do u expect i can do with my blog. Yup, n this hols im so gonna make it a fruitful one cos i hav like 101 things that i wanna do..
Ok gotta rush for tuition le. Its a new one, so hope it works out!
Shall blog on my goals during the hols when i come back again..^_^
월요일, 5월 08, 2006
Mood of the day: Stoned
Action of the moment: Talking to hy on msn n entertaining myself
Sigh. First week of holidays n im alreade bored to death. Feeling lost again cos i simply dunno what i should be doing. Will come back again when i finally find something that i ought to be doing ba.
On a sidenote, im looking forward to 6th july. But i think i will surely cry when i finally watch King n the Clown. Hiaks..
N i certainly dun look forward to the days after that..cos no more motivation again le.
일요일, 5월 07, 2006
Mood of the day: Dunno
Action of the moment: Juggling my korean shows with joonki on youtube
Hmm ok today's entry is going to be slightly long cos i havent been blogging since the last day of my exams. N yup, they are finally over. As usual, i just cant seem to feel the ecstasy that i expect everytime after my last paper. Too stoned le ba. But oh well, the worst is over so i ought to heave a sigh of relief n be glad for it. Jap was ok la. Anyway as long as i can get a S for it, i cant be really bothered also. Cos if i dun i cant grad lor. Not that i have alreade decided on pursuing my honours but it is still better to have more choices. I think the only thing i remembered about the jap paper was that the lecture theatre was super freezing. Mad lor. N i din even bring my jacket along. So i was just shivering n shivering while trying to write. N i was hungry during the paper too. Sigh.
Went out w kw after the paper to erm, celebrate. No lar. Celebrate wat. Its just that this will be our last jap mod le cos dun think we will be taking next sem anymore. Sick of jap le ba. Been taking with him since jap2 til now, alreade quite impressive le lor. Especially since jap is not something that i consider as important to me. Guess it was more of the pple that kept me going ba. Cant say that i din make a few good frens in jap over this 4 sems. I think i might even miss some of the pple..
So ended up going orchard lor cos i needed to rot til 5pm to go toapayoh meet my mum. Err it was more of an aimless walking kinda thing cos we had nowhere in mind to go. Last day of exam, n alreade aimless. How nice. Sian. N the worst thing was that something happened when we were at action city that got me super paiseh lor. I no face to go back there jiu dui le..n of all pple, it had to be in front of kw. Kept making fun of it lor. Hiaks. Dunno why that day i was super accident prone. =((
N on the same day, something occurred that din make me very happy as well.
Next day was election day. For the first time in my life, i finally get to participate. But it was far from wat i expected actually. But ya, im still glad PAP won. As i told hy, MM Lee is my idol..lol. He's really zai mah. It was a hectic day actually. Cos in the morning supposed to go vote, den go eat breakfast n go for tuition. But dunno y there was a crowd there so din get to vote. After tuition den i went to meet juline at toapayoh cos we were going for our first tango n jive lesson at Allan's. Ehh..if i sum the lesson up in 2 lines, it will be 1) too many pple and 2) i felt like i was doing a mass matchmaking session. Lol. Really leh. Although i like the 2 instructors, but the place is like barely enuff for all the pple there lor. I think there were at least 20 gers n 20 guys there. N its that kind, the ger has to wait for the guy to go ask her to dance w him one. Diao. Super mafan lor that kind. But there were actually 2 dogs n a cat there. N they had cute names! The cross breed between maltese n shih tzu one was called jive, n a bigger dog was called paso after paso doble. N the cat was called tango. Heh so cute. N ya i saw a few familiar faces there as well. Got a guy in life science one n he's actually attached. As in i usually see him alone in sci one mah. Den got another guy that is like super familiar but i just cant seem to figure out where i saw him. N he also said he saw me b4. hmm dunno. Den got a funny guy that i danced w called nolan. Seriously, i think he was there to pick up gers lor. He was like talking to every ger there den asking wats ur name blah blah blah. Wu liao.
Oh den i saw choo en too. She seemed to have changed alot from wat i used to know. But no comments. Hmm wat else did i see there..ohh tango n jive are nice but the latter is super tiring lor. N i still dun like the environment lar. Even though i welcome the change from seeing ah peks to younger guys, but its really too crowded. So me n jul decided not to cont anymore. Heh we kinda played cheat too. Cos we din pay the fees! Lol..but ya now i have to go n look for new courses liao..hope we can go for the ntu one actually. Den maybe i will ask zhiwei if he wants to join or sth. Hes the only guy fren i noe who is pro-dance one leh. See first ba.
Heh my mum agreed to my oven..but no time to go n get it. Sigh. I hope i can get it by this thur though. Supposed to get it on tues but i got tuition w lionel. Hmm shawn n lionel are finally going to finish their SAs by this wed. Im glad for them but honestly, i hope they will really work harder, especially shawn.
Hmm do i still have anything that i wanna blog...ohh i wanna learn guzheng leh. N my korean..i think i said that since dunno when le. N i wanna go shopping too..although nowadaes im reduced to my nua state again. But i dun mind having a few rounds of mahjong..lol.
Still thinking of whether i shld go n find work anot..
수요일, 5월 03, 2006
Ok i think i already blogged today le but yup just found something amusing that i couldnt help but blog..Heh i think my di looks like a lifesized doll! Haha..bet he will come after me if he reads this. Lol. Dunno leh the more i look at him the more i think so..heh. Its a compliment k. =p But really leh pretty long eyelashes, big eyes n nice features. Haha all perfect for a doll..just that its a boi doll n not a ger doll only..haha..im amused..
Haha ok no relation..just put a pic for fun..
Mood of the day: Sian
Action of the moment: Mugging jap
Yup mugging jap is a boring thing. Cant say the same though if u ask me to mug korean. Heh. But the fact is i do have my last paper on fri so no choice lor. But lucky thing is i s/u-ed it already so i dun have to worry so much about it. Cos im like totally in hol mood alreade. =) Lala..
Nothing much to blog about again. Boring boring life. I wish something would happen n let me look forward to it. But the thing that i hate most about anticipation is that eventually the thing will happen n ur life will go back to square one yet again. Its a vicious cycle isnt it. N it makes me sad when the thing ends. But if theres nothing for me to look forward to, my life is just as monotonous. So, how? Shrugs. I also dunno how. Not that there is anything for me to expect right now in my life.
Why cant plots in reel life happen in real life as well? Heh ok, silly thought.
Oh tango n jive is finally starting on this sat. Finally something that can keep me occupied. =)Watching korean dramas is nice but watching My Girl can actually be quite a torture. I m further convinced that i hate shows where i like the 2nd male lead n not the first. Cos i know he definitely wun end up with the ger...hiaks..poor poor joon ki. Oh the prev pic that i put up of him- the one where hes wearing this red shawl thingy, eugene actually thot he was a ger! Lol..i was so amused. But frankly, joonki reminds me slightly of hyesung. From some particular angles.
Jaejoong is still the prettiest...^_^
월요일, 5월 01, 2006
Mood of the dae: Tired, Needing joon ki therapy
Action of the moment: Need i say further?
Sian. Im worried about someone. But that person is obviously oblivious to everyone around who is showing concern. N honestly, i dunno how i should help anymore. Did i ever helped in the first place? I should hope so. But i know that if i cant get the person to trust me i will never be able to help totally.
Sianz. Somebody once told me that i should only trust myself. I rebutted n said, nah the world seems a nicer place if u have a few pple that u can really trust. I wasnt being greedy, for all i asked for was only a FEW. But yes i agree, it is hard to find someone that u can trust completely. This mundane world is, after all composed of human beings. N everyone is selfish for their own reasons. Still, i begged to differ n i said that at least i trust u. (dun ask me who) Oh well im not taking back my words, at least for the moment. Not til the person does anything to make me lose my trust.
Just to clarify things, the 2 pple i mentioned are not the same person lah.
On a lighter tone, 2 pics of someone i have been thinking alot about recently. =)
There was actually a chio-er pic of joon ki in the show but its too small so i din save it. But ya this pic is not bad too. Heh. But as compared to jaejoong i think joon ki does have angles where he doesnt look so pretty, whereas jaejoong looks almost perfect from whichever angle u view him. N i was so happy to find this vid on youtube where dong bang shin ki acted out the king n the clown! Lol. But the saddest thing was that jaejoong acted as the concubine n not as kong-gil. Cos i think he would have made the perfect kong-gil... But the whole skit was like super hilarious cos they kept on having NG esp for yunho..n jaejoong as noksu was like super chio lor. Lol. N there was this scene he tripped over n knocked the king down that got me really laughing like mad..haha..so cute~~ even xiah n max were very cute too doing their lines..=)
As i said before, korea is a gigantic eye candy factory..^_^
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